Dear Iphegenia,
I was at the fire department and there was this woman there - short, thin, blonde, had never seen her before. I think she was helping out at the f.d. One of my children is with me - it's my oldest son but he's only about 3 years old.
He tells me that the lady found a kitty, and is giving it a shower, and can he go watch? So I say "Yes, you can."
The shower is situated in a center area, kind of like an office cubicle, with no ceiling, but higher than a cubicle. (not that way in real life) I go towards the door to the shower area, and there's blood coming out of the door, onto the floor, just a little bit. Walking in, I find her pushing some red water towards the drain in the floor. My son looks very alarmed, so I ask him what happened.
He said "The cat went POP."
I look at the woman, to explain, and she kind of poo-pooed it, and acted like it didn't happen. She walks out, and my son walks out, and I go further into the bathroom, and look around - blood everywhere, dripping down the walls, on the ceiling, floor. So I take a shower head/hose and start spraying down the walls, trying to get the blood off. Knowing that there is something wrong, but still not knowing quite what to think.
My dream continues as I am going about, doing things, and my son asks if he can take a shower with the woman. I say yes, and he goes in. I'm across the bay from the shower area, and I hear what sounds like flesh hitting flesh. Over and over, and then my son, whimpering. So I run over to the shower area, making sure that I can sneak up and not be observed, when I see her hair, sticking above the cubicle walls. She's looking for me. I stand against the wall so she can't see me, and when she turns her head to look the other way, I continue sneaking up. I know I must not be seen. She turns again and sees me, but this time I see that she is covered with blood. Her face and neck. She looks down into the shower area, and starts punching my son. I get in the shower area, and he is covered in blood, whimpering, crying. I demand to know what happened, and my son said that he didn't mean to drop the shower head on her foot. I find out that not only has she been beating my son, but she apparently stuck something into his pinkie, making it bleed, as punishment. I grab my son and run. She is coming after us, blood all over her, trying to tell me how it was not her fault.
At some point after this I return to the fire department: other people are there, and I am going to let them know what she did. Our assistant EMS chief looks in the other woman's cubby and sees gifts, LOTS of gifts, wrapped, with names crossed out and others put in their place. She has stolen these from the staff, and was going to give them to the people at the fire department.
Needless to say, I'm not wanting to do my little mantra anytime soon.
Thoughts?
alpagmom6
Dear alpagmom6,
First, I have to say that this is a very exciting dream - it shows the process of unlocking and opening up your own inner communication. In my opinion you should be letting it unfold further. As for what it means...
Blonde people symbolize an inner desire to be more vicarious and glamourous in some way. Cats represent feminine power and independence. Children often don't represent themselves but ourselves or other people - young, innocent, childish, etc. Or a desire to return to past hopes/times. If you are rescuing the child then it's likely that, despite looking like your physical child, the child represents yourself. You are saving yourself (the part represented by the child) from something. Showers represent forgiveness and cleansing - a need for these and in the actual showering a sense that these have been obtained. Fire departments are about catering to the needs of others over and above oneself: self-sacrifice that makes one a part of the faceless team.
So...I think that what you saw was yourself (child) wanting to be more socially acceptable. And that this was to be obtained through washing away the inner power you as a woman contain. Dilute and weaken it through a cleansing and forgiving shower. Not saying you want to convert to Christianity and confess your sins(!) but that a part of you desires the social acceptance to be found in conforming to the societal norm.
However, this act of cleansing kills the cat, so to speak - it explodes.... Explosions are about being unable to contain and box up the inner self any longer - bottling up rage leaves one ready to explode at the slightest disturbance. So too with restraining our real nature. Blood was released everywhere and this worried the child. Blood is passion, life, living...the loss of it is about being emotionally sucked dry.
The feminine power (the cat) exploded (POP) when the societal norm (the blonde) tried to cleanse it (shower) of its power so that it could become a faceless part of the group. The blonde wandered away unconcerned - because socially one ignores these things. The destruction of a woman as a powerful being is to be expected and lauded, not worried over. You wanted to clean it all up and started trying to do so. Cleaning is the act of trying to remove the obstacles you face (in this case removing the passion and power so you can be normal). Cleaning the shower is about needing to be clean enough to deserve forgiveness as well as believing the blood is there because of your actions - it's your responsibility that you're in need of cleaning and your fault that the shower isn't clean enough for you to do so.
But deep down you know this is stupid and wrong. The confusion and disconnection points to a deeper belief that this is a false need - that your conscious mind is telling you to be this way and do these things but your spiritual self doesn't understand why or believe it is necessary.
Next the child is drawn back to the blonde to be cleansed and made acceptable. You acquiesce - because after all this is your desire to an extent. To have a nice normal easy life where you don't hide who or what you are. To fit in in all ways. And the blonde beats the child - violence represents unexpressed emotions or feelings. She (ie you as a socially acceptable person) resents him (you as your most natural and pure self) because he stops her from fitting in. Conscious-mind-you grabs child-you and flees. She follows - woman desiring social acceptance through ordinariness stained with the passions of who she really is.
After all, we cannot flee ourselves or our desires - we can only accept and process and move on through them.
The final message she (blonde) has for you is the gifts she stole. Stealing presents is about feeling terribly deprived of things we truly believe we deserve. That it occurs at the fire station indicates that the theft you feel is to do with acceptance and camaraderie.
Hope this helps you understand what is coming out through your dreams,
Iphigeneia, Crone of Hekate
